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An old high school friend just found me on Facebook.
She is very conservative. It is odd to go back and read her status updates prior to the election. I imagine at some point, we'll get to the point of ignoring, or *gasp* de-friending... but for now, it's pretty interesting to see how two people from the same town can choose such different paths.

I feel kind of censored in these public entries. In fact, I haven't been enjoying writing them.. it makes me not want to write any entries at all. I suppose I have always been a little secretive, or even two-faced at my worst, and this putting it all out for the public to see without any control over who or when is out of my comfort zone. And that is the reason I am still doing it five days in. Time to push some boundaries. Big changes are coming, small patches of uncomfortable are good preparation.

A friend reminded me of how PC I am today. He is totally right about it. I am very PC in my speech. But I got the feeling that he felt I was holding something back. I don't think it's true. The way I speak is natural to me; it isn't contrived. My speech and writing are generally passive. (Generally!) It's just how I am. But I do notice that my writing style is different in these public entries. That reflects some effort. The words don't flow like they do when I am writing.

I am not doing NaNoWriMo this year, but I did participate in 2006 and 2007. I came up with the craziest stories, one in particular that sticks with me still. Have you ever written something and been shocked by it? I love that. it doesn't happen to me often.

2008-11-06 05:09 (UTC)
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I unfriended someone today, my own cousin. It was kind of a "Last Straw" thing since he had previously done many homophobic statuses or comments with his friends, etc. I tended to ignore them as he is only 18, but when he started spewing the celebratory 8 statuses he was gone in a click. Oh well.

2008-11-06 18:11 (UTC)
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Linda, I don't know how to tell you this but...I don't think you're all, uh, all that passive?

You've sliced my self-esteem into shivering giblets and avenged yourself on an uncaring world too many times to really be passive. I would say less 'passive' and more 'careful'.

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